Maybe it’s because I work in marketing. Perhaps it’s because I have a distant-but-growing obsession with branding. I can’t say for certain, but I’m quickly becoming tangled in this task of creating an identity. Who do I want to be? Or, more specifically, what do I want others to see? This is a valuable thing to consider in your career. At this stage in life, it’s terrifying to sit and think, “Who am I? What makes Kelly Rivard?”
This is hard subject for me. My professional interests are pulling me in two very, very different directions. At age 19, I’m contemplating the possibilities of what I’ll be doing for the rest of my life.
I know, I’m young. I know my goals can change and that my career could take my places I’d never imagine. But what I do now could influence my opportunities later. If I grab internships in public relations, will it be too late to go to e-commerce later? These questions are common.
For now, I’m going with the flow. Opportunities are finding their way to me. The proactive things I did early on have brought some amazing chances to my doorstep now. I can at least rest assured that I was wise in getting on-the-job experience young.
Going with the flow doesn’t make it any less terrifying. I’m shocked at how often I get complimented on how motivated I am, how focused and career-ready I am. I always look at the person talking to me with surprise and confusion. I’m driven, yes. Motivated, yes. But I’m not ready. I’m nowhere near ready. I’m uncertain.
I don’t even know who I’m going to be in the work world yet. I may not for a long time. But it’s safe to say that I’ll cherish the relative safety of college until I have to face the “real” world.