The holiday rush has gotten the best of me, and I start my winter internship today (eek, cue nerves!) so this is a little delayed in being released. However, this post is of the most sincerity.
So far, 2010 has been a roller-coaster for me. It’s been a massive year of change. For the good, for the bad, and for the indifferent, it’s been a year to reckon with. A friend of mine summed it up well when we spoke a few weeks back: “You’ve had a rough couple of months.” That seemed to be a running theme for 2010 so far. I’ll admit, bitterness has gotten the best of me several times.
Hey, I slept through Thanksgiving dinner this year. I didn’t feel up to it, and after the stomach bug I’d endured earlier in the week as well as the emotional turmoil of my first big holiday without Farmboy…well, a nap in my uncle’s spare bedroom seemed a better option than sitting at a table full of boisterous relatives. I love my family, but they can be overwhelming.
That doesn’t sound very thankful, does it?
Well, it isn’t thankful behavior. I put a lot of effort into #foodthanks and the only Thanksgiving meal I ate was a few leftovers of casseroles at 10 o’clock at night. But, away from the hustle and bustle of my family’s get-together, I can think. I can clear my head. I can reflect on the good things that have taken place in the last year or so, and breathe deep.
A few examples:
- Even if I miss Farmboy terribly, I have freedom now to do things I never would have were I with him…such as, taking internships in faraway places and studying in England (both of which are on the to-do list). And even if I lost a boyfriend, I still, in a way, have a best friend, and a second family who will always be there for me.
- I’ve faced a lot of personal challenges this year, including some of my own inner-struggles. There has been a lot of personal growth.
- 2010 has been the year of AgChat. Not only has my volunteer and professional involvement been fantastic, but the friendships I’ve gained through the AgChat discussions and the AgChat Foundation have become vital to my everyday survival. These people are ones that I’m sure I could not live without. It’s not often that people can say they have adopted family scattered all over the country…I can say that. For that, I’m thankful.
- My career is flourishing. If everything else seems to be falling apart in my life, I can at least say that I’m off to a strong start.
- This time last year, I found out I was completely cancer free. I never had cancer, but there was a scare. I’d spent about a year going to regular doctor appointments, getting all sorts of testing done to see what the problem was. So, not having cancer is something I’ll always be thankful for.
- I have some of the best friends a person could ever want or need, met a wide variety of ways. On Sunday, I had the chance to be there for someone in a way someone was once there for me. That feeling is irreplaceable, and while I wish my friend did not need to be put in that position, I’m glad I could be there for him. And, I’m glad a close-knit community of friends could come together to be there.
These are just a few things, a few rays of sunshine through an otherwise dark period. There’s always light. Always. Some of my AgChat friends like to consistently remind me that I need to make lemonade out of life’s lemons. Another one said, “Everyone gets lemons, it’s the amount of sugar that you add that makes the lemonade.” So, guys, here’s my lemonade. Heck, this is just a Dixie cup of my lemonade. I have jugs of it stored away for when I need it most. Sometimes it’s harder to enjoy the lemonade because it takes too much sugar or the lemons were just too sour.
Regardless, you have to enjoy it. You have to, or life will eat you up.
So, following a rough patch and a lot of personal trials, I’m thankful. I could be bitter, I could be defeated, but I’m not.
What are you thankful for? What made your Thanksgiving so fulfilling this year? What’s your “lemonade?”