Where have I been? In Employmentland.

It’s been nearly 3 weeks since my last post. You know, this post about how delicious pumpkins are grown. Where have I been?

I’ve been settling into my new job.


The outfit I wore for some of my interviews. Doesn’t everyone walk their dogs in stiletto heels?!

At the time of writing my last blog post, I was lost. I put up a brave front and buried myself in my Type-A coping mechanism of sending out as many job applications as possible. I did some freelance work (poorly) and mentally prepared myself for the long haul of unemployment.

No one lands a new job that fast after being laid off, right?

Charlie Day on Unemployment:  "Just get a job? Why don't I strap on my job helmet and squeeze down into a job cannon and fire off into job land, where jobs grow on little jobbies!"

This is how I felt about job-hunting.

I hated being unemployed. I filled my days job hunting, running, and baking. I sent the spoils of my culinary exploits to work with Nightwolf, because they were so damn tempting. And the one thing I wanted to avoid during unemployment, with every fiber of my being, was a relapse of my eating disorder.

In that time, my bipolar disorder got a little out of hand. My self-care is heavily rooted in routine and my sense of self-worth. Both of those were shattered. I went back to therapy, despite my therapist having cleared me for a break weeks before because of massive progress.

Things were hard, but they’ve led me to something amazing.

2.5 weeks after getting laid off (and a handful of other interviews), I walked into [insert fun nickname for the company here] for an interview. Immediately after the first, I was moved along to the second.

I heard back from them about an hour after I left, asking me to come in the next day.

The following day, I had my third interview. I was sent right away to the fourth and final round. I was offered a job on the spot at my final interview. I accepted their offer just hours later. This wasn’t just “a job.” This was “the job.” I knew in my gut this was the next chapter of my career.

(Of all the companies I interviewed with, this was the only one that asked me to say the alphabet backwards, which is on my résumé. And I did it in all 4 interviews.)

Friends, things happen for a reason.

“Losing” my previous agency was horrible. I spent two and a half weeks feeling without purpose. I followed my career to Kansas City. My career allowed me to find myself. “Losing” that was had.

I miss my former co-workers and clients like crazy, but we can keep in touch. And now, I’m fortunate enough to take the multitudes of stuff they taught me to another top-notch organization.

I’m a member of a dynamic, welcoming, outstanding team. Everyone is incredibly talented, yet very welcoming of others’ expertise. The culture is so wonderful. My new job is a healthy blend of my comfort zone, and new challenges that will help me grow. And the work is incredibly fulfilling.

It honestly feels like the step up in my career I would have been afraid to pursue otherwise.

And it’s been a learning experience.

What have I learned from unemployment?

  • Keep the faith. My darkest moments were the ones in which I gave up on or doubted God. He’s brought me to something better, and while it’s easy to doubt at times, He truly has blessed me.
  • Let people in. I HATE relying on others. I’m typically independent to a fault. Letting others help me (financially, emotionally, mentally) was a requirement to getting through this. I also want to say thank you to:
    • Nightwolf. He patiently dealt with a LOT of emotions. From anger, to scary fake-it-till-you-make-it- feigned happiness, to hysterical sobbing, he was a rock. I don’t have words for how wonderful he was and continues to be.
    • Mama. I’m pretty sure she’s got some sort of voodoo magic. When she knew I needed something, it just happened. Care packages, financial help, a well-timed text message. Seriously, if you don’t fully appreciate your mama, you should. Mamas are awesome.
    • Kourtney. She’s been my best friend since we were 5, and she continues to be the best friend a gal could ask for. I can’t even explain the ways she helped me through this “Charlie foxtrot.”
    • Pastor Gabe. I hope he doesn’t mind a shout-out here. He was another one of those lifelines that kept me chugging along through this ordeal. He’s an absolutely wonderful friend, and a fantastic catalyst for God’s grace.
    • Many others. You sanity-keepers, condolence-extenders, encouragement-offerers, and listeners. You’re the same friends and family who were among the first to congratulate me when I landed the new gig. And you’re the ones who are there even when I’m not in crisis. You’re kind of the best.
  • It’s okay to not be okay. I say this to people all the time, but I hardly practice what I preach. It’s a big deal that I let Nightwolf touch me (let alone hold me) while I cried.
  • Challenges make us stronger. I’ve learned this lesson multiple times throughout life, and while I “know” it well it can still feel like a shock to learn it all over again.
  • There is always a bright side. Today at work, someone mentioned that he couldn’t imagine me being in a bad mood or having a bad day. That was touching to me, since I strive so hard to be a catalyst for positivity. Despite all that work, it’s only human to get discouraged at times. Even when things seem to be at their worse, there’s always a silver lining!

To say that’s all I’ve learned would be a bold-faced lie. But, I try to keep these ramblings under 1,000 words and I’m drawing dangerously close.

Here’s to a new chapter, a new adventure, and a few more files in my “Life Experiences” folder. Thank you, sincerely, to everyone who helped me through the tough times. It’s because of you that this has turned into such a positive life experiences.


10 thoughts on “Where have I been? In Employmentland.

    • Thanks, Crystal! I’m inclined to agree right now — while I did NOT want to be laid off by any means, it’s definitely put me in a better place for the long run. Funny how things shake out sometimes.

      Thanks so much for reading and responding! Hope you’re well!

  1. Love the blog entry! Love that God answered my (and everyone else’s) prayers for you even bigger and better than we imagined. I love walking through little vignettes if your life with you through your blog. You rock, and I think you are starting to notice!

    Aunt Jayne.

    Sent from my iPhone

  2. Loved your post! Having gone through the exact same experience with the same company, you are so much better off!! And it’s terrific when you realize you’ve found “the job”! Congrats! That’s when you realize just how good things can and should be! And it usually doesn’t take the talented ones long to find that next great gig! 🙂

    P.S. Say hi to Angela Ridpath if you run into or end up working with her at [super cool fun new agency — edited by Kelly]. She was my manager when we both were at Bernstein-Rein. 🙂 Love her!!

  3. You know my story as well, but I still appreciate everything you’ve been sharing about this experience. My job officially ends now on the 30th – and two full months of job hunting and a handful of interviews and more applications that I can count I still have nothing. I know you’re one of the few people who knows how much this really, really sucks- but I’m hoping someday soon I’ll have a happy ending post like you do!

  4. Great post and great insight! Glad you found a new job and it is for the better. It IS hard to trust God when it comes to situations like this, but he truly does know best! It is also good to know, at times like these, that you have a good support system full of friends and family who care about you. Best of wishes in your new endeavors!

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